I Need To Find You, I Gotta Find You - RP for and_twosyllable

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Standing outside the Radisson Hotel in Manhattan, Eva sighed and shoved her hands in the pockets of her thick white coat, shivering from the cold. Truthfully, she had no idea what the hell she was even doing there - but after watching what happened to Anna and Don after their relationship ended, she decided she wasn't going to let that be her.

Heading inside, she got Ford's room number from the woman at the front desk and took the elevator to his floor. She found the room easily, and lifted a hand to knock - but her hand froze mid-air. Suddenly, she wasn't sure she could do this.

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"Excuse me," Ford asked, holding the room's phone to his ear. "Someone asked about my room?" Narrowing his eyes, he glanced over to the door. "And you gave them my room number. No, thank you. No, it's alright. No, please don't do it again. That's all," he said, hanging the phone up.

Someone had asked about his room number? He hadn't even asked if this someone was a guy or a girl. Glancing over to his best friend sleeping in what could technically be called their bed now, he knew it couldn't have been Eddie.

Scratching his head, he decided to try to head whoever it was off at the pass. Pulling the handle down, he opened the door revealing Eva mid-knock or pre-knock that was.

"Eva."

To say that he was surprised was an understatement.

[sorella-italia.livejournal.com]

She froze again when the door opened to reveal Ford. Lowering her arm, she began to speak. "Ford, I came to see if you'd wanna ta--"

She cut herself off when she saw Eddie in Ford's bed. Her heart stopped dead in her chest and she thought she was going to vomit. So this is how it goes? Eyes filling with tears, she turned sharply on her heel and took off running down the hallway toward the elevator.

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Ford looked back behind him before taking off after her, feeling for his room key in his pocket.

"Eva, wait!" he called out, hearing the door to his room shut. He was barefoot and he hoped she wouldn't make it all the way to the elevator. Unfortunately, the elevators door opened up ahead.

"Eva!" he cried, sliding in behind her. "Eva -- I can, he followed me." He tried to give her an explanation, tried to apologize with his eyes but he didn't know what else to say.

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"I see how it is. Don't bother tryin' t'explain." Her voice cracked as she feverishly pressed the button for the first floor lobby.

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"You don't see how it is," he said. "You weren't there. You couldn't - we didn't really know each other. I had a lot to get through down there. And the guy I loved, from high school -- I didn't treat him right. I wasn't happy and through all that I had to make sure I saved Amy."

He sighed, leaning against one side of the elevator.

"The minute I did, I returned. No, I wasn't faithful and I apologized for that not that I can't do anything about that -- but I left him there and he drove here, Eva."

What he said next, Ford knew would hurt Eva but also that he may be slapped. Unfortunately, he had no idea how else to explain things.

"He followed. He followed and he told me he didn't want to be without me, that he couldn't be without me. He loves me."

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"Well, I'm glad you two got to feel each other up again like old times." She mumbled, avoiding looking at him at all costs and keeping her arms folded against her chest while the elevator slowly descended.

At the last comment, she doubled over slightly, choking back a sob. After a minute, when the elevator reached the lobby she spoke up brokenly. "Yeah, well, I hope you two're happy together." And with that, once the doors open she stepped out as fast as her short legs would carry her.

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"Eva," he cried, again, into a full lobby. Here Ford was, shirtless in sweat pants without shoes, and he was running out into a lobby full of guests and staff as he tried to head her off.

"You can't go, you can't leave it like this. You didn't even tell me you were coming. And how, how could I have told you Eddie arrived? We haven't -- he arrived. I love him and he arrived and I don't know how you expected me to just tell you that. You told me if I came by your apartment your brother would kick the shit out of me." He breathed our heavily, looking down. "I don't feel good about what I did or how everything went down. But I am sorry and -- we need to talk. We can't just leave it like this. We can't.

"We can't."

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"Yeah, well maybe you should've thought about that before you cheated on me with your- your- love." If Ford didn't see how pained she was and sick she felt when she said the L word, then he really was dense. She had to get out before she threw up. Too many people were watching this and her head was spinning and her stomach churned and god she was going to puke.

"Go back to your one true love. Because obviously I never mattered next to him!" With that, she stepped around him and nearly flung herself out the door, into the chilling cold.

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"HEY!" he yelled following her into the oh, really, really chilly Winter New York weather.

"I never said that you didn't matter!" He yelled loud enough to stop her in her tracks and as he spoke he saw his breath. "I didn't even think about Eddie when I was with you. I did love you. Very much. Being back in Plymouth, everything came roaring back. I couldn't bring myself to call because if I did I was afraid I would go back. And then Eddie entered into the equation and I had no idea what I was doing. Only that I was hurting you. Every day I was hurting you."

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"You don't love me anymore, Ford. You love him and you always have. It's clear." She said, exasperated and still sick.

"But you know what really gets me? I waited for you, Ford! Every fuckin' day I waited. Six months I waited and waited and hoped for somethin' - anythin' - to let me know you were okay and you were comin' back to me. I stayed true all that time - except for once. I kissed a guy - a really dorky, sweet, amazin' guy - because I thought I had a chance and I thought you were gone. Even then I hoped and prayed in the back of my mind that you'd come back and forgive me."

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"Why would I have had to forgive you," he asked, crossing his arms, trying not to show how incredibly cold he was at that moment.

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"Because I kissed another man while you were gone. I pursued another guy cause I was lonely and you were gone and I had no clue what happened."

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He looked down, breath quickly leaving his body, guilt pooling inside him.

"I - I don't know what I can say or do." His feet were freezing as was his chest and hell, his entire body was going to be an icicle at this rate.

"I'm sorry," he tried again, looking down.

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"You should be. I hope you two are happy, I really do." Eva replied brokenly and turned on her heel to flag a cab.

"Go back inside before you get frostbite, Ford." And with that, she disappeared inside a cab.